“I don’t know if I killed them. Maybe I did. In the end, everything will depend on me…” Nurse Lucy Letbyaccused of killing seven babies in the maternity ward at the Countess of Chester Hospital, wrote the closest thing to a confession in her own diary, along with the victim’s initials (in a different color) and the date where he plans to commit his crimes.

The gruesome document was shown by the prosecution before the jury who had to decide whether bad nurse (as known in great Britain) was guilty of seven deaths and 10 other attempts that occurred between June 2015 and June 2016, when an abnormal death rate was detected in the maternity hospital and the alarm was triggered.

Police investigations determined that almost all of the victims were premature babies poisoned with insulin or by injecting air into their lungs. All the deaths coincided with those of Lucy Letby’s ward, 33, and had in common a “rapid and unexpected deterioration” of the babies’ health.

The nurse, who had been reassigned to administrative duties while the investigation was under way, dared to occasionally send notes of condolence to the parents. He was finally arrested in 2018 and charged with 21 counts; among these, seven murders and 10 attempted murders.

Her diary entries with the baby’s initials are the strongest evidence brought against the nurse in a trial which has been held for six months in Manchester and is nearing its final stages. Letby, who has maintained his “innocence” despite all the evidence against him, He faces a life sentence for his crimes..

Since the trial began, prosecutor Nick Johnson has provided multiple handwritten notes from the nurse, who was found in his bedroom implicitly admitting responsibility for the crime. “I don’t deserve to live; I deliberately killed them because I wasn’t good enough to take care of them,” he wrote in a post. announce. “I AM EVIL; I DO THIS”also came to write in capital letters.

Some of the parents of the babies killed have attended trials and must contain their emotions over the attitude shown by the nurse, who wept this week when prosecutors showed jurors a photo of her bedroom, emblazoned with capital letters that read: “Wherever you go, add sparkle.”